I enJoy TeachIng cHildRen... =) ThEy caN Be anGelS at TimEs, bUt aLso litTLe dEvILs..HaHA.

there will be times that ppl come and go in life. some will stay alittle longer, but some will just cross your path in life.

whether to compromise..

asked baby to lend me his laptop,
now using it at home.
wee..
can watch some videos..

lala..
these few days have been great.
Fathers' Day is coming.
sometimes i wondered, why is it that everyone seems to be more excited to celebrate Mums Day than Dads Day.
Is it becos we spend more time with mum when we are younger?
for my dad,
i know what to get for him!
i really hope that he will like it.
if u will ask me what kinda of dad i have,
sacrificial,hardworking dad!

he is always sacrificing his money,time,youth for us.
sometimes i know that he is really tired from all his work,
but he just keep on going for this family.just for my sis and my sch fees.

he works under the sun alot alot... all the time i can say,
that explains why he got such tanned skin.
not that he wanted.

i am grateful to him for what he has done.
very grateful to him.

thanks Dad!
you will nv get to read this, but i just want to tell you that you are the greatest man i have ever known.
never say die spirit,
always have the solutions, a Mr- Fix-it man!

=)

oh, read my last second entry..
i was mentioning abt our wedding bands.

well, issue solved!
we bought our lovely bands.
both of us love it!!=)

somehow, with mx in my life..
things that i wanted seemed much clearer to me now than ever before.

he really give in to me alot..and i mean ALOT.. haha..
it's really amazing to the extend that he would go all way out for me.
bought me a LV purse. i was very very excited.

my friends often asked me what is it in Mx that attracted me.
well,
needless to say.. his generousity.

i can boldly say that if he had a million, he would give me at least half of it.
even if he has only a dollar, 50 cents will be mine.
he is always sacrificing and i know that for this LV purse,
my baby did it once again..just for me..

thanks baby,
i knw u really doted on me.=)


a happy family,
loving n understanding couple,
unconditional love for each other,
respect,cherish...and always
forgive n forget..=)

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you are my one and only.

it's been long time since i wrote anything here..

well, i'm still alive! hee..

many things that had happened and
there'll be some upcoming major events in my life soon..
i cant wait till that day, frankly speaking.

anyhow,
just wanna update abit on my life here.
got results back, 3credits n 1 pass.
happy.
really gotta give thanks to God! He make it through for me. =)

next sem, taking 5 mod.
hey peeps out there.. need your prayers ya.

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i was very blessed by the msg that Pst Tan shared on last fri during the churchwide bs.

he said that sometimes ppl stopped serving,coming to church due to certain pains in life.
millions of thoughts went through my head.
that's so true.
when ppl got disappointed or hurt by the fellow friends,leadership in church,
they tend to fall away.especially those 'long-time christian'..

in my opinion,
fellowship in the cg is very important.
i really think so.

sometimes, i do felt difficult when organising outings.

but still i will try.

yeah,
i want to be someone with greater tenacity.

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thank God for my baby who never fail to be there for me during my lowest time..('',)

Marriage is not a ritual or an end.

It is a long, intricate,intimate dance together

and nothing matters more

than your own sense of balance

and your choice of partner.

orange make me feel more perked up!

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went to several stores yest with my baby at wisma to look at the wedding bands.

gosh! soooooo many different designs.

frankly speaking, i'm a very easy person.
if i like it, means that i'm gng to get it. ( fast shopper)

if ever went out with me to shopping,
u will know that i just have to walk in the store and
browse ard. if i dun like the stuff, i will walk out.
maybe becos i'm impatient, dun wanna waste my time.

however, if something my eyes took liking to,
ahh..i will think carefully whether i need it,
then pay for it le.
think approx time spent in a shop: 5-15 mins.

anyhow..
we saw something frm Goldheart..tht both of us like and felt comfortable wearing it.
hmmm...
then as we walked to Fairy's Inc for our appointment..
mindset of making a ring is changed.
so many different designs the couples came up for themselves..

every pair carried its own personalities..
there's even one who do their tattoos on the ring!
and shockingly binary codes!

how creative can humans be when they really wanna to......

to love and to cherish.....

ahhh...my blog seemed dead after a long long while ya...
decided to change my template for a new look..
hahaha.. black!!
my goodness..that's almost a month so that i since updated here..
haha..

brief update ya..
been busying with work n studies..
starting to get on with my new year resolution of hitting the gym.
so far, i've been keeping to it.
*pray hard that i will hang on till end of 2009 and hit my target weight loss.hee.*

after much exercising,
i felt happier and more 'alive' in my body.=)

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saw a nice laptop last on the newspaper.
shld get it when i feel a bit more richer.haha..

anyway.rom date is drawing nearer.

kinda get more excited..today gng to Fairy's Inc with baby to take a look.

oh well, i told baby that nowadays, trend is to also have diamonds on the wedding bands,

unlike our parents' times.

simple designs.

hmmm... so far,

soo kee,citigems,lee hwa,goldheart's design .. i dun quite fancy leh..

how how??

Happy New Year!!

2009 is here!

haha..abit late thou, cos today is the 5th Jan.

started sch today.
Macroeconomics.
quite stressed cos think i need more time to revise on the 4 mod in the midst of giving tuitions.


well, but God is good.
He is the strength in me!
I believe that with Him, i CAN do ALL things. =)

need wisdom and knowledge in managing my studies n work.

well, my goals for this half year mod is 2 High Dis and 2 Distinction.

i can make it come to past!

todae went down to HDB hub with baby to sign the lease of agreement for our flat!

just to update,
we have already got our 'nest' at Punggol Sapphire. =)

a very good location as it's gonna be near a town centre and Punggol Mrt itself.
really thanked God for His favor.
it's our first time trying to ballot..and yes! we got our queue number at 227 out of 1000++.
i prayed very hard for the very block i wanna..
cos else i got to walk super far to do my marketing nxt time.

thank God! =) He is good ALL the time.
He reserved one of the units! on 6th floor.
the rest of the higher storeys were swept out.

recently, news came out abt the waterfront project gng to start soon.
Yipee..!! Punggol is in great demand. 90% of Sapphire was occupied.

after today, they are gng to start to build le.
i'm happy. Very happy that God has always been there for both of us.

Thank God for the good assignments!!

He brought a few new students to me..
and I'm praying for more.

Thank God for the strength
cos I'm gonna start to get busy again.

2009 isnt gonna be a free year for me,
BUT definitely a fulfilling one!

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praying for a word to start off 2009.

a year of breakthrough in my career?
a year of building kinship/friendship?
a year of preparing mentally/emotionally for marriage?

really being a wife is not a easy feat,
first you gotta learn how to accept ALL of him.(his habits,etc)
then, learn to take care of him..(cooking,household chores,his needs,etc)
taking care of his family too..
planning our finances...
plan to have a baby soon...

hahaha...
abit too far..hee, shld be plan for ROM and wedding first.
lalallala...

but i am serious to learn all the things i mentioned above very very soon.
haha, told my mum le..that i wanna learn how to cook soup first..=)
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had a good time with baby over the weekend.

went shopping with him for his gd fren bdae presents.
baby's a generous person...=)
after which,
went to celebrate his bro's bdae with his family..at Riverside palace(SUntec)
it's ala car buffet.
haha..we really eat till our stomach 'bloated'.hee..

food was good, wanna bring my parents there soon. =)

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during shopping, i just casually asked baby wanna go in Lee Hwa to take a look not.
he was quite surprised.
haha, those who know me well.. i'm NOT that type of girl that looks at jewellery or get interested in them.
hmm.. just got the mood to look at wedding bands' design since we know that i goto custom-made mine..(sob...cos it is 'RSAF')
hee..private joke!

saw this one, i like it quite alot.
very elegant. NICE!=)

saw many things that's nice...
Guess belt, Guess bag, ALdo shoes...haha..
but nd to tighten my belt,so...haiz..

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went to visit my uncle last thur with baby(hugssS!)
on fri, dap went with me too.
thanks dap! (you're the best friend that i ever hv..)


thank God that he's recovering le.
=)
indeed God is our healer.

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praying for strength upon baby..
it's gonna be a very busy week for him.
AuDIt!
jiaYoU..=)

Love is like a mustard seed;

planted by God

and watered by men

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outing

blissful woman here... hahaha..

went out with baby today.

he was on duty over nite yst. went home in the morning at abt 1030am.
fetched me frm heartland mall at 1130 to pack lunch tgt.=)
then we went back hme.

after heavy lunch, we took a nap.(he was really really very tired.....)
weisiang was actually hme, oops!!
din pack food for him,in the end,he got to eat half wat i packed-carrot cake.

by right, i goto meet Hendri n Jd up at 630.
haiz, when i woke up..head super giddy. took medicine and rested awhile.

baby suggested that we quickly gt to town..
(purpose- to get ah thong n weisiang presents)
,then visit my uncle at SGH.
walked ard, then saw burberry. haha.
i gt myself a polo T. YipEE!! using the voucher that CG gave me..
i just have to top up abit more..hahaha.

actually, wanna buy for my darling oso...
but he refused, saying that i shld gt for myself.
and of cos, i gladly took his wise advice. i'm glad i listened.heeee..

we had a gd dinner at paragon(Fish& Co.)..
ordered seafood platter for two.
Oh man, it was really BIG for both of us.
we ate to a point that we wanna vomit le.can u imagine how full we are?
anyway, after getting my perfume ... baby sent me to hospital.
hmm...i was struggling with the thought of whther hw to ask him to acc me up
cos( he really hated to go into hospital, even for his relatives)
but somehow....u know..i smsed him while he was talking on phone,driving..
he nodded..!!
i was overjoyed!
i was glad that he drove me there and acc me up..

can say that he is a 'er shi si xiao' lao gong...hahaha..
=)
from the bottom of my heart, i salute him..not becos the person he did all these for is me..
BUT.. all that he has sacrifice and put his effort into doing..
i...i.. dumbfounded.
if anyone will to ask me what is the most touching thing he did for me, i will have to think for very long.
well, not becos there's none.. there are too much ..so much that i really must recall all.
hee..

i'm blessed,loved because of you....baby......

(",)

yst baby went AC morning session with me.
he took leave to attd the electives with me..
cos i wanna attd 'conflict n anger management in marriage' tgt with him.
the speaker is John Lim. heard him once in the adult retreat.
but this time round, it was better cos baby's with me..

He enjoyed the workshop thou he has to rush here and there.
right aft morning session, he has to rush back for his medical.
thanks baby....
for trying ur best to be there on time.

we learned alot about how to handle conflicts.
haha..
hmm... heard that Pst Kong saying that he's gng to preach about marriage in Jan.
i'm so excited!
has told him le.. wanna him to attd with me.

hmmm... when can we go for our 'making marriage works' bs?
Rom date set le.. according to lunar calendar.it's a very good date.=)

nice view from Singapore Flyer ya...=)



i din know that Singapore can look like this......

my birthday celebration with my baby...

he bought this for me!! hee...

words kill.

Because You Loved Me

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

finally.. this friday is the last paper of examination for my tuteeS!

yipee..
=)

a good break is wat i need..

but this year,i wun be gng for holidays le.

hmm.. but hope that i can really do things that can relax myself.

i need a breakkk..........

no matter how much nonsense i gave him...
he always can tolerate
them all..

but there's always a limit to ppl's tolerance lvl...and i really hope that
at times, i wun push it too far....

must pray that God give me self-control over my emotions.
esp when he's being so nice towards me.

insecure of myself. come on, aud. stop thinking in that way.

birthday present.

baby is so sweet..

my birthday present no.1-
he got me a precious moment umbrella which i wanted very much.

my present no.2-
piece a 1000 pc puzzle for me.. 'Stitch n his gf watching fireworks'.
it's so nice...
he spent 12 hours to make it. Incredible!!
he really got the determination. did it when he's on mc that day.
it was such a surprise.
i am really really very touched..
=)

An abused child is a helpless victim of circumstance. All children should be free from all types of abuse, exploitation or neglect as these may interfere with normal development in childhood and may adversely affect their potential to be competent adults and/ or parents. The sooner you intervene, the more you can help to prevent a vicious cycle of abuse from progressing

problem surfaced.

i really need professional help.

felt that i have suppressed for too long from then.

what is the root problem of all the emotions outburst?

went rsaf open hse yst.

thanks to dear who brought to there cos it wasnt open to public.

understood wat his working environment is like nw.

=)

are women born in this way?

jealousy seem to be in me. so easily.ha

back hme from a long long day.


sometime i just wonder..

how true are the people ard u?

how real are they when they had conversations with u?

are they living a double-standard life?

perhaps that's why dar always said that it's ok to trust ppl,

but u really need to 'see' for urself.


sometimes in life, really need to ask God whether if those are ur true frens.

set me thinking as i just realised something abt my this 'fren'.

or maybe, she's not even one i want to call as my fren.

changes should be constant in ur life.

people change,
situation change,
our mindset should change and renewed daily too.

saw something quite shocking yest.

think
i din really have gd impression of this person in my life.

the kind act was so disgusting.

the person has such a lousy character.

cheap.

my busy busy day...

tired.... super tiring.

maybe as u grow in age, physically u will really feel it too.

the whole week has been so hectic for me.

not to mention that nxt week,the schools are having their CAs.

went out for the past few days till late.

Mon- went out with jt n mel. till 2plus.

Tue,Wed- studied for test.

Thur- cgm.( thank God that darling came to pick me)

Fri- met up with dap,shuhui,weitieng till 3plus.

Sat- after svc, went acid bar with jt,mel n his gf till 1plus.

and everyday i had to wake up at 730am without fail. (have to.haha)

super not enough rest, not enough slp..

today's tuitions ending at 9pm.
started at 9am.

i'm tired............. can someone help?
hahaha...

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but still happy at wat i am doing now. hee..

*missing you badly..
=)

just came back frm HK cafe.

met up with dap, weitieng, shuhui.

fun talking to them.

haha, long time since i met up with dap...
missed her...

glad that we did..and this is hw we kept our frenship gng strong.=)

updated one another of wat we are dng in life...
it's so impt to have ur close frens with u...

=)

having my investment management test tml at 10am.

actually,it's only 9 more hrs to go.

how's my revision gng on..?hmm..90% le.=)

coffee is always my best companion during these times.

went mac to study for abt 3 hours.

it was fruitful indeed. yeah..

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darling gng to hk this wkend with 2 of his frens.

gonna miss him over the wkend.

think i will have to find my programmes.hee..

but well, think i will just have to give more tuitions over the week
cos many sch having their CA2 e whole of nxt week.

busy busy busy!! haha..

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went out with zoe and mel on mon nite.

no idea where to hang out, so i suggested Holland V.

we settled at NYDC. had a great time there.chatting and catching up.. =)

zoe pop the qn," what do u see in mx? why u like him only after being frens for so long?"

hmm...i told her that i like him for being him..
a v.detailed guy, always cater to my needs,mtg my needs.
he always pay attention to wat i hv said or even just by making a passing remark.
he will buy or get it done for me. =)
isit that sweet of him?
of cos..alot more things i like abt him....(but if i'm gng to blog abt it.. ahaha..it's gonna take many hours..)

hmm... for the 2nd qn, i told her that it is becos we hv been frens for long enough,
that we know each other well.
there's always a foundation. a very strong one.
we've been there for each other as gd frens,
wat's more as couple..


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tues, gave 1 morning tuition ,then darling came to pick me up frm my place after his work.
so nice of him... all the way frm Changi to Jurong. can u imagine hw far it is..?

i actually wanna cab dwn to his place,
but he dun wanna me to waste money on that.

shared with him something i heard frm my fren,
which made my heart ached.
haiz.

anyway, he shared with me some of his experiences.
(i'm so so glad cos with him ard, i can always learn.)

we had a wonderful relaxing day.... =) had lunch at LJS,hougang mall.
i bought some books for Megan at a popular sale,
then went to arcade with darling.
haha, he's so into catching 'stitch' nw....

up to date, he bought/catch over 30plus 'Stitch' items for me already.
not forgetting the 1000 pcs puzzle! =)
spending alot.. not only in Singapore, but got alot for me from his last trip to Taiwan.

shall post the pics up.
Our stitch collection.. hee..

thanks darling!! u are simply the best...!

darling pass me back his laptop le...

yipee..
here i am to blog again..=)

tml's singapore birthday!! our national day...

wow, felt the atmosphere le..

=)

being protective and being possessive is only a thin line drawn.....

so ..

to love is to give...

=)

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u might not reap what u sow.

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i knew it.

rip open my heart nw.and u can find ...

marriage is a lifetime.

enough



enough




enough

it's not easy..

never easy...

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sometimes,
when u just need someone to lean on.

somtimes,
u just need to find a place of refuge.

sometimes,
u just need someone to guide u back home.

sometimes,
u just need a listening ear.

sometimes,
u just need someone who understands.

sometimes,
u just need .........................................................

to love-- to cherish--

My love will get you home -by Christine Glass


If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.

If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

Boy, my love will get you home.


If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.

If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

Boy, my love will get you home.


If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.

When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

Boy, my love will get you home.

If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,

get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.

Boy, my love will get you home,

Boy, my love will get you home.

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i love this song..
the lyrics is so meaningful.

i wanna build a warm home that
my husband can come back to after a day of work..=)

nice show.

last entry- 10th july.

today's 21st july,monday,rainy.

why i started this entry in this way?

because i just finished watching this scv HK drama 'heart of greed'.

dunno anyone ever watch this not.

just now, the show just ended with a scene about this wonderful guy(cheng liang) dying frm an car accident. but nevertheless, he called up his ex-gf(chang zai xin)..just to help her solve her work problems.

both of them kept diary and missing each other even thou they broke off 2 years ago due to misunderstandings.

was quite sad when i watched this show. btw, their theme song is so touching..

'my love will get you home'...........

i'm blessed.

i'm v.impressed by the capacity that my darling has.

for his work, his friends, his family, me.

but he din have time for himself.

not mentioning his lack of sleep and rest.
=(

i feel so much for him.

poor thing.....



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had diarrohea again.

wah, it's the 2nd time in the month le.

gotta pray for gd health.
so that i can do more in life.

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i felt happy these days.

all my frens said that i got a blissful look. haha..=)

yup, quite true.

lalalalalalalala...

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i wanna thank God for what He has given in my life.

i wanna thank God for my family.

i wanna thank God for darling.
a man who never fails to be there for me when i nd support.

i wanna thank God that i'm able to live to see this beautiful world.

i wanna thank God for the joy that i have in Him.

=)

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bought a book recently-" why Mars and Venus collide"..

haha.. i think it is gd to read up abt relationships and
abt hw to manage conflicts betwn 2 persons.
this is so impt in a marriage life..

haven really read up yet..
so do soon and update contents here..hee..

failed lehzzz....

i din make it for my TP today.

nxt date- 23/9/08.

wasnt that disappointed and sad as i tot i will be.
(perhaps the fact that my hubby is there for me @ BB,comforting me.)

thanks for making ur way dwn.=)

never mind, like wat hubby said...
pay to gain an experience.

well, it was a costly one thou.
haha..

he said that i am a 'thin skin and thin heart' person.
i corrected him 'thin skin-yes... but 'rich heart'...cos i can cry easily..at anything he said.
hahaha

.....

i was supposed to sleep at 10pm..
but think staying up for my darling's call is a better choice nw.
haha..

well... many things' gng on in my life.
at least for both of us.

planning in progress.
i cant wait to see that day to come.... =)

read my blog entry last nite.

realised that i goto clarify myself,
not all the guys frm church is like that.
but i'm still so disgusted by the way that person wrote.
maybe i'm sensitive.
BUT
how come after ppl had put dwn in words ,
then they tried to defend their own opinions by ending
some nice and cliche statements.
sounding noble.. blah blah blah..

i really despise those that judge.

i mean what's the pt of gng church, serving so much in a ministry,
getting busy with God's business.
in the end,
go ard judging ppl, not loving the lost out there.
wat is this?
can they testify for God's love in their life?

not all that are not like that,
but when the unchurched read all those,
u think they will come to God because of those 'provoking' words???????
haiz.

hmm.. think i got to stop here.
enough le, gng to be very nasty and 'judgemental' le. hahahaha.
dun wanna follow others' footsteps.
=)

nonsense

after reading several blogs of my frens..
talking to some of them..
just realised that SOME guys frm church arent so nice afterall.
oops, i shld say that guys not attding church can be comparable
or even much much BETTER than them.

i strongly believe that actions always speak LOUDER than words.
but that's one thing whereby,
some guys in church like to do the opp way.
talk alot but do nothing.

anger anger anger.
someone provoked me by 1 sentence he blogged on.
who he think he is.

well, i guess i shldnt be angry at all.
cos he is one of those who knows hw to talk but cannot act on what he preach.


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love the things i'm dng now.

just came hme not long ago after a long chat with JT at bp.

haha..
tired and slpy.

hung up with dap just..
so happy for her that she finally gt something she wanted to do.
will pray that everything will go well for her tml morning n thur.
=) jiayou gal!

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it's 130am now.
gave 6 tuitions in total todae.
max out le. haha..

tml wanna go for a short run to relax myself in the noon time.

then a 5 tuitions day tml.

gonna motivate myself to work hard.
for the greater purpose.hehe..=)

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love is just so amazing,
it can make u go all the way out for ur loved ones.

i love to love people.
love the kids and love my family.
my most impt man in life -SB...darling.
most of all, love and thank God for everything He has given to me.

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problems solving

i guess we have been that far/been thru alot to be able to solve our differences quickly.

thanks for the great assurance.
thou i felt that problems are still there,
but i'm sure that as long as we stand and face them tgt,
we can conquer them all.

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Love can unlock all bars of impossiblity.
wat i wrote months ago.

i think it's .......................

marriage shld be blissful?

maybe i'm not mature enough to talk about marriage now.



know nuts abt it.



look at me,

mixing with kids all the time,

no exposure to working world or adults,

cant even do basic accounting.

how to get marry like that?

no solutions,

only problems problems,questions posted that caused burden.



i felt extremely lousy abt myself,

no achievement in life.

wat have i got?



i dunno.



in the past, i felt that being contented is happy with who u have,

that's the motto in my life.

But

being a simple person is not so great afterall.

Now

simple-minded to me is = stupidity/childishness.

easily contented=not able to achieve much in life.

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i just walked out like that.
with unsolved problems, tears and a mind that still wouldn't understand.

i need to have time for myself.
need to think wat i really want.

will all couples face these? i duno.
no experience, no one sharing with me these.

i'm just a shallow person.

bintan pics....

after playing pingpong.
first time, xuan teaching me.

outside laser quest.

after our 'killing' session..me emerging as the winner.

on bugee..on the way for lunch.

nice layout..

Lunch at the golf clubhouse.. nice view.

Look into my eyes -
you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart -
search your soul
And when you find me there
you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart -
you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am -
take my life
I would give it all -
I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it -
there's nothin' I want more

Ya know it's true
Everything I do -
I do it for you

There's no love -
like your love
And no other -
could give more love
There's nowhere -
unless you're there
All the time -
all the way
Oh -
you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it -
there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you -
I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you -
ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true
Everything I do -
I do it for you

another day

just ended last tuition of the day..

quite tired le..

wanna thank my darling cos he lent me his laptop.

like that i wun be too bored at hme(pc down)

yeah..newly bought one, but he din mind lending to me first.

he's great and thoughtful! =)

some pics..more to come..

on the golf course after dinner...before the real thing start...=)


with my darling...


marry me???


the view we get...

way back to singapore... with a different status..hee.

my pink roses...

=)

bintan trip 2

continual of my previous entry...

so on the third nite, after a very very good spa massage..

darling brought me to an very exclusive dinner,on the golf course,overlooking the sea.

when darling is on the bugee,driving me to the venue..
somehow i felt
in my heart,
i knew n i knew that he's the man,
who will be the one..

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anyway, he brought to the place we supposed to have our fine dining.
haha.
which he promised me that we will have one of these days.

the moment i reached the tentage, i saw 2 chairs ONLY.
with 2 private waiters and a chef by the side waiting for us.

i was like...
turning to him..
:"ARE U GOING TO PROPOSE TO ME?????"
he laughed and responded..."NOOOOO.........no ring yet leh.."

i heaved a relief.. cos i will be too scared to have that meal..
\throughout that meal, darling seemed to be uneasy..
din finished his food..
i mean hardly touch his food..(guess he must be very very nervous)

after we done..
he turned to the F&B supervisor..and asked "where is it?"

i held him so tight and asked him where is what?>

he followed her, and i followed him...

the whole place is dark..
and not far, i saw candle lights in a sand pit nearby...
as i approached it...
my heart pumped faster...
saw the words... tears streamed down unknowingly...

he went dwn on his knee, and i wept like mad by then le...

when he took that ring out,
i was so shocked..
(where he gt that from..?)
gave me the bouquet of flowers... 12 pink roses...=)
he did a movie clip for me..
our courtship period,with a song too meaning....
awwwww... i was so so touched by it, moved to tears again..

ended up that i kept crying that nite..hahaha..


everything went so nice..the waiters there congras us..and they said that i'm very blessed to have a bf to propose and went to this extend to plan a proposal just like this...

i felt like a princess that nite..
with 2 private waiters serving me and my darling..
1 chef only for us.. no one there to distract us..
a security guard escorting us to the place on a bugee behind ours..
a nice bouquet of roses(e color i told darling after he already ordered..he knows me...hee)

after the whole thing...
when we went back...
he then told me that
1)Bintan trip was planned 2 months ago...he already contacted ppl there..
2)ring was bought 6 months ago... ,been looking at it for past half a yr..
1 day after i went to Larry with him.
3)everything is arranged in a way tht i can enjoy the sea..
like the ferry trip, the room.. a dexule rm with sea view..dinner by the seaside..
4)flowers ordered 2 months ago as Bintan Lagoon has no florist..

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everything has been planned for before i even agreed to go on the short getaway.

i must say that it's the best best plan i ever heard of...
i'm surprised..totally taken aback..=)

shall upload this very special day's photos... (6/6/2008)

bintan trip...

Bintan trip...



went Bintan trip with darling.



he got the tickets, the booking of resorts.



told me that we are gng to take a super ex ferry there.

made a mistake when we boarded it, so sat tgt with the rest.



haha, but good thing is that darling helped me to get

the complimentry pastry and we found out that we shld be sitting elsewhere.



we moved.

to the VIP seats where we can go out to the rear of the ferry.



sooo nice.. and breezy..

i love the sea.

asked darling why we can shift places, he just said

:" i knw the captain and he wanted us to sit the VVIP seats."

i rolled my eyes, bugging him to tell me why.

haha.

then i realised that he paid so much more for the tickets.



shall upload all the photos we took.



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when we reached Bintan,

we are welcomed by the deep blue sea and the vast sky.



i was so excited,

knew that it's gng to be a very nice getaway!



we stayed at Bintan Lagoon Resorts.



once we reached the place(230pm),

darling went to the reception to take keys.

( asked me to sit far far away--

i scratched my head, cos i dunno what he means.

but just do it lah)



we gt the keys. went to our room.



i stepped into the room and gave a loud - "WOW"!



seaview leh..

got 2 big beds. a sun bed and king-sized bed!



weee....

wat excite me the most is the seaview and the balcony.



took shower and walked ard the resorts.

gt swimming pool, many other facilities

(laser quest,rental of bicycles, go kart,ping pong, body painting, spa....and many others..).

so we started to plan our 2nd day le.



so abt 4plus, we went to rent bicycles.

both realised that it's our very first time cycling tgt.

hee..

it's fun, we cycled to the beach.

spectacular!



then we went for buffet dinner at abt 6plus.

btw, bintan is an hour late..

so it's like if it's 6pm there--spore is already 7pm.

hahaha. we felt super hungry.



per pax - $35. haha..

i rmb that darling told me that he wanted to bring me for fine dining one of these days.

tot it's already that.

nope- he said.

tml we shall go for a gd one.

i was puzzled...

35 per pax nt gd enough??

okay - i said.



actually wanna go clubbing that nite

, then he was so tired that he fell aslp

while i took my shower.



Arghzzzzzzz....

i was super angry that night

and refused to talk to him on 2nd morning.



he apologized to me, coaxing me to talk to him.

well.. i gave in.

my temper problem again...

i knw he's really very very tired le.



2nd day-



woke up at 7pm.

went for a hearty breakfast and morning walk with darling.



the air is so refreshing.

the clouds are so white and fluffy.

the sun is so 'sunny'. hahaha..



took some funny photos on the beach,

low tide.

many ppl carrying buckets to catch crabs, but we din saw any.=(



nxt we went to the facilities clubhouse.

darling taught me ping pong.

haha. First time playing. i wasnt that sure to try,

but somehow with him.. i can play quite well.

haha.



he's very patient. something he wun.



after an hour at that,

we went for our 'killing' session.

more to like ' slaughtering' session. - me killling him.

haha..

only 2 of us played laser quest,-meant for 10 to 15 ppl game.

it's dark inside.

i was scared. but i managed to shoot my darling so so many times.



gt our results!

Audrey- 490.

Mingxuan- (-40)

WAHAHAHAHAH!!



went swimming.

there's a poolside bar.

end up darling drank 3 cans there. ahhaha.

really enjoying himself ya.

he seemed troubled when it started raining.

i was sad cos i wanna go kayak and do seasports.

he proclaimed that it's just passing rain.



true enough, after our lunch at clubhouse.

it stopped at 230pm.

yipeeA!



there we went for our kayaking and banana boata!

it's simply fun!



haha.

darling planned to go for Spa at 5pm.

relaxing massage... javanese kinda.



i asked him, why cant we drive bugee ard..wanna try that.



little did i know....-----------



that evening..

lalala..

haha..

i got lots and lots of things to upload and blog about for these past 2 weeks...



first of all....



i'm engaged!!

=)



hee... it's a very very surprising one.

super shocking to me too.



my darling has gone to the extra extra mile to plan the proposal at Bintan...



shall blog abt this... the WHOLE trip... hee...

at darling's hse.

completed our 108 puzzle. nice ya, a glittering one.

Lilo & Stitch. my favourite!~

at my Aunt's place now.
mum came here to get dumplings. yummy!
i love my aunt's dumplings.

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wanna talk abt more on yst surprise.
haha...

in his car, then darling mentioned abt getting puzzle's glue.
well, i just asked him who's the person he giving it to.
(out of curiousity)

to my surprise, he hesisted to tell me.. start playing taichi game with me.
kept changing topics.
i gt so mad cos he seemed to keep things frm me.

in the end,
he had no choice when i gave him a black face,
screaming at him.

........."the person is... you.."

haha.... i was shocked..but a pleasant one.
=)

Darling,
thanks leh... it's the very first puzzle i gt frm anyone.
and it's you...
that made it so so special.

950 pcs.

our next project..........

in progress------

stitch

weeee....

today i gt very pleasant surprise frm darling!

yeah!!!!

he gave me the very first jigzaw puzzle (bought frm KL trip)..=)

i was super, super touched by his actions...

he really put in his efforts...

thank you, SB...

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school holidays are finally here...=)

yipee..!

can really have time to myself le.

how did i spend my vesak day?

had plans long time ago to
go out.

end up slping through the whole half of the day.

how quality is the time spent.

wasted the whole day,
should have be firmer in
what i wanted in the very beginning.

couple day always turned out to be famiy day.

sunday....

nw at darling's place..
just came back frm a dinner with his family n aunts...
was a gd meal. yummy!

he's nw playing PS with Weisiang.
so ke ai..playing mario. looks cute.
gng to learn frm him ltr..hahaha..

like to see darling playing games,
he's always so focused.
and when he's focused,
he do look serious and charming to me.
hahahha..

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we're looking at some flats at PunggolSpring.
well....
i'm quite excited,
but think cos of the bad weather..
i abit giddy nw.
no mood le..

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
very touched by darling's actions.

P.S
DArling.....

thanks for always dedicating ur time for me on every Sundays without fail.
though sometimes ur frens will ask u out,
u will put me first before them
and choose to let it be my day.
GF day.=) hee...

xie xie ni de fu chu..
=)

for my S.B



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yst went out to fellowship with zoe,Hendri,qin si,adam n zy.
it's been long that i last went with cg for fellowship.
quite a gd one,
cos i shared with them abt my tuition assignments
n how i got them thru
word of mouth n my own 'marketing' ways.

they were quite shocked to hear that
actually pasting papers at life lobby,
distributing door-to-door..
it actually works.

i mean nowsdays,
instead of postin letters,we use emails.
instead of using phone cards,we use sim cards.
instead of gng to school, we can even attend lectures online.
using blueberry to check emails instead of computers.

everything has gone so Hi-Tech.

here i am, still believe that this workss.
but indeed,
it really does.
haha.

grabbing the opportunities that students getting back their results.
some parents needed to find tutors.
i pasted some near my blocks.

and...... yippeee!! 3 more cfm joining the classes.

really goto give thanks to God.
He answered my prayers.

to be happy is to be contented with what you already have.

Mariah Carey's song -ByeBYe

to all those out there who have lost their loved ones....

This is for my peoples
Who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby
Your man or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye
No, no, no
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers
Friends and cousins
This is for my peoples
Who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky
Cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times I didn't get it
But you kept me in line
I didn't know why
You didn't show up sometimes
On Sunday mornings and I missed you
But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show
Because you loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today
Face to face

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on
I wish I could talk to you for a while
Miss you but I try not to cry
As time goes by
And it's true that you've
Reached a better place
Still I'd give the world to see your face
And be right here next to you
But it's like you're gone too soon
Now the hardest thing to do is say

Bye bye Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye, bye bye, bye bye
Bye bye

You never got a chance to see
How good I've done
And you never got to
See me back at number one
I wish that you were here
To celebrate together
I wish that we could
Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to
Tuck me in at night
With the teddy bear you gave me
That I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
You'd make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact
You're gone forever

recently gt this big earthquake in China.

affecting thousands of people, many homeless.
numbers are still increasing.

quite saddening when i hear the news over the radio,
in news broadcast, in newspapers.

my heart went out to those ppl in China, Sichuan
when i read e New papers today.

one child found dead with her nails all gone,
her parents felt that she must have been trying to climb out..
a child.

a photo of a dead child brought tears to my eyes.
not being emo,
but saw a young hope of e future buried under the rumbles of the collasped building..
it's just...... ...
the whole school went down tgt with 900 children in the building.

because of the one child policy in China,
i guess many parents have lost their only hope to our Mother nature.

it's not just the pain of losing ur loved ones,
but your only loved one.

after reading all those reports,
i just realised that life is just that fragile.

within a few hours,
thousand of lives lost.
thousands still trapped underneath the rumbles..
maybe some dead, or miracles might happen..

just goto pray for those who are still clinging onto their lives out there..
for strength and protection over their lives.

cherish people around you,
cos you'll never know what might happen next..

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Avril Lavigne - When you're gone..

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lye
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you


I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
and the clothes you left, that lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?


When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah yeah
And all I ever wanted was for you to know
everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah...

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
And When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And When you're gone
The words I need to hear, will always get me through the day
And make it ok

I miss you...........

pondering..

i realised that i became less emotional nowadays.

it's good.
i have better self-control over my emotions.

08 has really turned out to be a much better year for me.
although many changes in my life,
some transition periods that i've to go thru.
nevertheless..
i know that i've grew stronger somehow.
situations made me so.

once told my fren..
anything that dont kill us,
will only make us stronger.
and yes, i wan to make that as one of my convictions.
so that i wun give up easily in this lifetime.

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i've let go of my past,
and i found my future.

my day....

just came frm viewing my tutees' exam papers.
at jurong west pri sch.
tired..
spent almost 2 hrs talking to Yueying Aunt.
haha.

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today went to darling's hse to wash car with him.

another surprise i gave him.

he was shocked to see me at his place.
haha.
i love to surprise him.

well, i din do much to help him..
but i just accompany him.
so funny, end up..i just sit there n
watch him wash.
=)
i knw he just dun wanna tire me out.
so sweet of him ah..

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recent favourite song...

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临

如果你能听到 心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你 沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己 像是空气

大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多开心
最角落里的我 笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品 偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隐藏著自己

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意

听你说你和你的他们 暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望 装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你有一秒 专属的剧情

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会发现 你会讶异
你是我 最压抑 最深处的秘密

如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意
你会鼻酸 你会流泪
只要你能 听到我 看到我的全心全意

Love,
The key that unlocks the bars of impossibility.

laying down ur life..

1 of my gal fren once asked her ex..
whether will he shelter her from a bullet in a wartime.
guess wat his answer??

"well, i dun think so. because even if i shelter that for u,
who knows after that shot u wun get another one.
it's better for one to sacrifice than both died tgt."

i was so shocked to hear that a boyfren
that's being with u for 3.5 yrs
would even have the cheek to say that.

i dunno how my fren reacted that day.
maybe yes, that guy is practical
and a logical thinking person.
BUT which girl cares abt that?!

at the end of the day,
ALL girls like to know and wish that
the one that they love most
is willing to die in her place,(even thou it may not happen)
that should be the most most impt thing.

i know that all guys out there think that
actions are still louder than words.
however, i still strongly believe that
out of the abundance of the heart,
your mouth speaks.
if you cant say 'YES,I WILL' to that question..
that just tells the girl how much she means to you, how much you love her.

To me, this is definitely an important question.

laying down your life for the one you love.

pictures with darling

..Singapore Airshow 2008..

at bangkok with darling..
saw this gigantic Stitch poster and we gt really excited..

hee....

at SPOP concert(SIS)..

*at Sentosa*

**darling brought me to Cafe Delmar**

...Romantic place...